Pete was my dog and friend, we got him when I was 14. He was a brown & white Shih Tzu. I grew up with Pete, he was a very funny dog, kind of a snob but we had a lot of laughs. 2020 has been a terrible year for everyone, but catching COVID-19 wasn’t the worst thing that has happened to me. Pete got sick. It started with a cough. He would cough all day and it just wouldn’t get better. We took him to the vet who said he has Bronchitis. After a week on antibiotics Pete’s situation hasn’t improved and we took him for an X-ray. His heart was widening, one of the lobes in his lung completely collapsed and he had a really severe bacterial pneumonia. His infection proved to only respond to 2 types of antibiotics in the lab, both very aggressive. One of them, we were told, would hurt his sight, and the other one would hurt his kidneys. We went with the second one. Pete had to get an antibiotics shot everyday, accompanied by an IV, which hasn’t softened the blow enough, and Pete’s kidneys got damaged. He started losing his sight, his hearing, his appetite and liveliness. We had to force feed him by injecting food and water into his mouth with a syringe. This saga went on for 2 months. During this time Pete got so skinny whenever I’d pet him I could feel his individual vertebrae. Eventually, we knew even if this saga ended, Pete already had existing chronic illnesses and it simply wasn’t fair to make him go through more pain. We put him down on October 22nd, 2020. On his last day, Pete only wanted to be alone, he didn’t want anything to do with us. He wanted to go. I just hope he knows everything we did was for his own good. Rest in peace, my adorable little friend

The song that reminds me of Pete

Towards the end of Pete’s life, I discovered the song Goodpain by Yoke Lore. It really touched me and is associated with Pete in my mind ever since. It talks about life, loss, death and all of these things we were going through together.